My name is Mike. One week before I came to Holland Rescue Mission, I tried to kill myself. I wanted to be creative, so I set up a pulley overhead and threaded it with a length of rope to which I tied a shotgun. I then drank half a gallon of drain cleaner and jumped off the chair, assuming that would end it all. Well, the gun went off, but it hit the rope and shattered it as I fell
unceremoniously to the ground. As it turns out, the drain cleaner must have been old and flat, because it had no effect on me. So there I was lying on the floor not dead, but thinking to myself . . . okay God, if I’m not gonna die I better go to the Mission. My life was so messed up I couldn’t even kill myself.
“ My TV and I were best friends. In fact, the television set was my only friend.”
My Christ-esteem is improving and I’m glad I didn’t, because here at the
Mission I’m discovering who I am in Christ. It’s not my self-esteem that’s improving; it’s my Christ-esteem. For the first time in a long time, I no longer feel broken or angry. I once had a home-based business where I was earning a
yearly income of six figures. I figured with all that money I didn’t need the Lord. Well, that was crooked thinking. That’s when I needed Him most. Now I’m back in the fold, reading my Bible, praying, and being grateful to God, the Mission and to you who give so much of yourself to make this place available to me.
In the past, I was so timid I’d stay in my cabin and have my groceries delivered. I didn’t want to see or meet anyone. My TV and I were best friends. In fact, the television set was my only friend. Today I can talk to people, interact with them and live a much more normal life. Well, that’s my story in a nutshell. Thank you for listening — and thank you for being a hope provider for me today and for the better days that lie ahead in the New Year.